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Days Forty One & Forty Two - Free Fallin'

4/29/2020 11:28 PM

It had to happen. Surprised it didn't happen the first time out. I got up yesterday excited and anxious to get on the bike. William had done some adjusting for me and I was planning a longer ride. He hadn't had time to adjust the back brakes so I knew going out I was going to have to use the front brakes. Something I have not told here is that I am a 62 year old Pokemon Go junkie. Sad, I know. It's fun and gets me to places I wouldn't go otherwise. Anyway, back to where I started. I planned my route around PokeGyms and PokeStops. The first part was familar. It was basically my route the first time out. To the park, down to the Jehova Witness Hall and insted of back home, on down the road to a main street and to the library, another church and then back home. I made it a four way stop just up from the library. There had been no traffic. I am truly not used to riding on roads with lots of cars. My mountain biking took place in the mountains and then later on, in a very remote area of northern CA. As I approached the four way stop I could hear a car coming up behind me. About the same time I realize there are cars pulling up to all the stops. I panic and hit the front brake .... hard. I feel myself going forward into the handle bars and attempt to put a foot down to stop disaster. I didn't. I ended up ass over tea kettle wrapped up in bike. My knee screaming. Three of the four cars went on their way amused, no doubt. The fourth car, the one that came up behind me. sat staring .... and smiling. It was weird. Embarassed and just a bit hurt, I smiled at them and waved. They drove off. I turned around, went home and tended to my skinned knee. And cried. More because my ego was hurt then anything else. Sucks to get old.

Something I didn't mention about the bike adjustments that William did get done was the seat. What he didn't do was tighten it up. So the seat twisted in the middle of me trying to salvage my fall which knocked me even more off balance. The only reason I actually brought that up is because I made it clear after that, that I wasn't going to ride till the bike was safe. So I didn't ride today. I've been off all day. Irritated, angry, bored .... wanting to work it out some how but being stubborn and just feeling sorry for myself instead. Sitting and staring at a bike I can't ride. Getting angry with William. Annoyed with Ellen. She's a fucking story all her own, man. She needs to get out of this house and back to her office before shit flies. For someone who honestly has a big heart, she is one of the most self centered people I have ever ever met. Period. She knows the world revolves around her and her shit don't stink. Just ask her. She'll tell ya. And then there's William who is just a fucking boiling pot ready to blow at any time. Wow, did I ever drift. Sorry.

Back to whatever it was I was talking about .... Ellen finished her work for the day and went out to smoke. I joined her and was told at that time that William was on his way home and he wanted her to go to the dog park with him. Okay, no biggie. Although I thought I was going with him, but whatever. The dogs are theirs, not mine as I was reminded not all that long ago. He gets home and comes out back to smoke some weed before heading to the park. Now I have mentioned the puppy next door, Bella. She's adorabe. A handful, but adorable. She got used to coming over and playing with our dogs and then Queen Ellen decided that she couldn't come play anymore because it bothers her. And we don't want that now, do we? So it was a cold stop of an activity that Bella loved. She's left alone all day, usually without water or food. Well, the female neighbor is there but she openly hates the dog and pays no attention to it. My heart breaks every day and it's created tension between the three of us. Today as we sat smoking Bella came over the fence on her own. Ellen lost it. William lost it. I just to to catch her so I could take her home but she and Lockett were running and playing and it took a minute or two. William grabs her from me and heads next door to put her back in her yard. In a few minutes she was back over. The whole process was repeated. Then came round three. Bella gets hung up on the fence, I run to help. William yells at me for helping her. I yell back she's gonna get hurt. He says their problem not ours. I say fuck you and grab the dog. He grabs her from me and takes her back again. This time he goes and moves what the fuck ever it was she was using to jump over. About time. So now they're both mad at me. They go in a proceed to eat without me. So I left.

Back now but just annoyed and angry. William fixed my seat while I was out but not my brakes. I will be moving north. With my unemployment I should have enough to put down a deposit on a place, load up and go start my life elsewhere. I'll have a job waiting. My goal is to be out of here sometime in July. God and COVID19 willing.

Stay safe out there.

Peace.

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