I'm not sure another four weeks stuck here with these two is feasible. They fight a lot anyway. But being under each others feet 24/7? Then add a third party to the mix (me) and the stumbling over each other just gets worse.

These confrontations happen around me most times. They really don't care what is said in front of me or truly take much notice that I may be in the room. I tend to keep my mouth shut. I've got a roof over my head. That can't be jeopordized. There are occasions when they do their best to draw me into the middle of it and I'm like, no. Not happening. They're both hot heads. Both needing to be right at all times. I get up and go to my room when I can and turn up the music or the tv. Sometimes I'm trapped until one of them walk away and then the awkward quietness sets in with the other while I try to figure out what to say or how to make my exit. There has been twice when I felt William was way out of line and told Ellen so, just to have her turn around and tell him what I said. I learned my lesson the second time round after she agreed not to tell what I said and then did. With me sitting right there. I was done. Done.

All that being said there are times when Ellen has just been an out and out bitch. Holy shit. Yeah. The likes like I've never truly seen. I told William very early on after moving in here over a year ago that he deserved a lot of credit for putting up with her. She can treat him so badly. And she wonders where his insecurities come from. I've gently talked to her about some things I notice. She has taken my concern to heart. And I've really seen her try to recognize when she's going all flipping tasmanian devil on him and step it back. Not always. But sometimes.

Ellen also has a way of using examples to make points that are or can seem to be personal attacks. And with overall tensions running high with two of us tripping over each other all day doing our best to be quiet for the one still working at home, tonights fight happened quick. Using William's current unemployment situation she came off the wall with a random statement about what will happen if William has no job to return to when this is all over. Will he have to prove that he's looking for work to keep the unemployment going?? WTF?? All I kept thinking is that's a bridge to cross when he gets there, certainly. William on the other hand went ballistic. Zero to ballistic in .001 of a second. I froze. Fucking froze. Nice way to ruin a perfectly good buzz. I totally understood what Ellen was getting to because earlier she had said something about not having to look for work while this virus thing was going on. So I'm pretty sure she was saying when the virus was over if "anyone" doesn't have a job to go back to and still wants to draw unemployment they will have to prove they're looking for work. So using William as the example was not the best idea. He had not heard the previous conversation and took it as a personal attack. As many times as he asked why is he not going to have a job to go back to and she tried to explain that she really didn't mean him .... it got worse and worse. This is where I come in.

Why? Why did I open my mouth? Why did I not get up and walk away? I made the mistake of telling William I felt he was misunderstanding. That Ellen was using him as an example and not directly assaulting him. That comment literally went over like a lead balloon. The look on his face said it all and all I could think to say was .... I'm sorry. He looked at Ellen, then me, pushed away from the table and walked away. She yelled at him to come back. He didn't. She went and followed. I came to my room. 

It's been quiet for awhile now. Not sure if the battle is over or just on stop for a bit. I get to get up super early and go grocery shopping with William in the morning. I'm not looking forward to it. Have a feeling it's gonna be a quiet shopping excursion. Oh well. Only 4 more weeks to go.

Stay safe out there.

Peace.