....and as un-interested as ever.

I don't like being single. But I also don't like dating. And now it's been so long that I've been single that I think I'm past "not liking" dating, that I'm scared AF to even start. And a lot of times when I hear that, it's when people have been in a relationship for so long that they're scared to get back out there. I'm so much into being single for so long that I'm not even sure how to not be.

I kept thinking I had to keep working on me. And now, it's like, will I ever really be done "working on me"? Probably not. It's something we should always be doing.

Speaking of. 

I'm on a fb group called "Culturally Fluent Families". Before reading some of these posts by others, I thought I'd most definitely be open and a decent fit for fostering other races. After going through the posts lately, I wonder if that's true. Is it different regionally??? I mean, I'm in a state that's not very diverse. If I were to get a call for a placement, the children would (likely) be from our area. They try to make placements as close as possible to the child's home. If that's the case, then the demographics are going to be similar. Around here, schools are VERY much primarily white. Neighborhoods, same. So, is it really like totally uprooting them also culturally???? Maybe. Maybe I need to realize I wouldn't be a great match. THE OTHER thing I wonder is.... I am in a class of about 10 families. All of them are white. There's another class going on, there's one couple that are brown. That's in the surrounding like 5 counties. Of the 3 families I know that are local, they're all white. Just with the demographics of our area, it's likely that placements will be white. BUT if not, I just don't want to be the wrong fit. 

A question was asked in the group "White parents raising black kids, if someone said you needed to turn down your whiteness to raise them, what would you do/say?" 

That's what's keeping me up tonight.

I should go to sleep, though. I was supposed to watch a movie with a friend- but not happening. 

So, I'll sleep. 

Maybe.

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