i still have my christmas tree up
i have feelings for someone in my past that will never amount to shit
i feel stuck in my career
sometimes i think i also suck at being a mom
i didnt think i sucked at being a girlfriend, but i haven't had a relationship for years- and i wonder if maybe i am now
i suck at waking up early to exercise. 
i used to like that.
i suck at being a daughter sometimes.
and also sometimes a sister.
sometimes also an aunt.
this year, i've sucked most at teaching.
i hate that a lot.
i miss being a great teacher.
not that i was necessarily a great teacher.....
but definitely better than this year.
i suck at cleaning toilets
and doing laundry
i suck at cleaning vinyl flooring.
and also probably shoveling.
i make my coffee too strong
and my drinks the same.
i should probably go to bed early.
and also wake up on time.
but i hit snooze at least 8 times before i'm up.
i suck at singing.
and then at not cussing.
i'm a work in progress?